Validation

So whose your lighthouse? Whose your person? Whose that person that is always there. I think we can have more than one person. Some have only one, only one and thats fine. I realized through a series of events this week that I'm my person. Don't we have to be our own person...that bestie that best friend can not possibly be there for every meltdown, lightbulb moment. I have always had many people, people , people people. I nurture and probably torture and sometimes haunt people. I set out for it, for the longest time maybe years I needed validation. I don't think needing validation is a bad thing. But is validation something we're supposed to outgrow? When we are toddlers and we learn to walk or hold our spoon or suddenly we can blow bubbles into our milk we want our caregivers to look. We want that smile that "good job" that the. hipsters constantly say to their children which has actually been going on for quite some time now I mean we can't say "good boy", because what if they are not going to present as a boy. I"m not being funny here ... I said "good boy " to my son and I do not think it did anything to whom he decided to be as an adult. Oh I don't know that's a whole other billiwig and I'm not raising a toddler so I really do not have a voice here. If I was 40 years younger I suppose I would say "good job" lol.

Back to validation deep inside this Artists soul I want everyone to love what I do. I think up until 48 hours ago I still did. Now that my Art is hung in an Airport where hundreds a week will walk bye and will like or not like. Yikes. I melted down a little after I hung my work and celebrated myself with a post on my journey. Jesus what if people don't like it or buy it.....Validation. I was happy with most of the pieces. One I am going to replace on Monday and rework, its supposed to be a Raven and I kept calling it a parrot the whole afternoon I was there hanging the panels. Omg. Its my biggest exhibition to date. I don't want anyone to say I like this one ,or this is the best yet or " is it a Raven ? I thought it was a Parrot"? I have always tried to do my best I know when its my best, thats the Validation that is what has to come from the soul. My Mother if I would say to her ..so and so said this and usually it would be something negative, she would said " oh now laugh that off"! I wish I could always laugh things off sometimes I can, more and more I can. Is this validating myself accepting myself. Validation between friends is accepting and communicating to the friend or the person in the relationship that they are valued. Validation of one self is the first person we need to validate. Making ourselves feel safe with our decisions, some are taught at the knee that they are worthy of their thoughts and are taught to accept, and again the word "validate". I'm 63 and in many ways I am self validated if that makes sense. Validation..today I Validate me. I am Validation ergo Self Accepting and love who I am, what I present to the world or to my person. Who is going to hopefully when my sucker is in the mud... Validate me. I hope you have that person. Otherwise we're an Island and no ones there to Validate us...... When we can't.