Big Show

So I decided to start using my site. Its taken 3 trys with different websites to get going. So here I am the 8th of February to get going with daily entries, Well its been a year, 7 weeks or so to get to the goal . Show my Art and blog. Stream of consciousness is what I was calling my creative writing on my Spirit Sparkle Style page. I called it Spirit Sparkle Style because I wanted to share my Art my Diy and jus talk about creative things.

I was still in an attitude of constant hyperness if thats a word, Hyper. Many reasons contributed to this state of "Suspended Animation". My Father used to say I was permanently planted in " mid air". Many reasons kept me suspended. Firstly I was put on an anti depressant at 39 years old. I was put on this from a Dr. I met at an after hours clinic. A Dr. who did not know my history and thus gave a prescription that changed my energy which now was in constant "high mode".

When I as put on this pill.....I was suffering from a broken heart I was not depressed, well maybe unhappy ....no one wants a broken heart. Back to the page. My journey with my page kept me in a constant state of anxiety. You see by now I had been on a pill that was messing with my state of mind. Many times I tried to go off the pill but to no avail. It caused me to cry and to be emotional after 3 or 4 days I would go back on, My Dr. who only knew me as wonky and funny and sometimes overwrought would suggest I practice mindfulness and lower or up the dose it was not the Dr.s fault. My Dr. was not the one who put me on this drug, Lets fast forward to December 2022. I said to my husband Im going off of this, I've had enough of misrepresenting myself. Imagine just suddenly be somewhere and my emotions depending what dose I was on (definitely what I ate that day), would seemingly have me grow wings and just become a bit of a wild card. During this back and forth I definitely had lots of good times especially if I had a drink which is a whole other book in my life. The main point of this blog is to just say this. December 16th, 2022 the real me was allowed out. The journey in the last 14 months has been one of Wonder. I went off of the pill the way your supposed to to slowly and by March I was me. Becoming me has allowed me to grow in areas that are unbelievable. My passion for Art has shown up in every area of my life. So I want you to know that anti depressants presrcibed by your Dr., one who knows you and if you are suffering signs that require you to use an ssri then do it. I just wanted to share a bit of what has happened to me. February 7th, 2024, I hung 8 paintings at our International Airport here in Moncton. This happened because I did some hard things, daily getting to know this Susan. Today I love her so much especially the little girl in side who I vow to take care of. Just a note I'm usually a little grammatically incorrect dont not read my blog because you are part of the grammar police because I have some really good stories on the way. I leave you in Peace...Sue